Starsign: Leo
Ethnic origin: British/Irish with a bit of brazilian thrown in.
Age: old enough to know better
Hometown: Liverpool
Currently Living: South West UK
Eyes: Blue
Height: 5' 8"
Weight: 13 Stone
Food: Pan of Scouse, Full english breakfast (with tea) or crispy bacon butties
Smoker: occasionally usually joints
Drinks: occasionally socially, neat Glenmorangie no ice
Hobbies and Interests: Tropical fish, Walking my Dog in the forest, Motorbikes, Music, Parties, Photography, Smoking weed, Website design, Everest and other extreme environs.
Music: Drum'n'Bass, Techno, Rock, Dance, R'n'B, Rap, Classical, Reggae, Punk.
Films: Das Boot, Meet Joe Black, Layer Cake, Apocalypse Now, One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest, Touching the Void.
TV: Documentaries, Sopranos, Top Gear, Trauma Uncut, Trigger Happy TV, Ali G, Lost.
Authors: Factual accounts, Stephen Donaldson, Andy McNab, Iain M Banks.
Heroes: Lemmy, John Lydon, Salvador Dali, Maurice Escher, Sir John Betjemen, Henri Cartier-Bresson, Stephen Hawking.
Happiest When: Hugging my daughter, and normally anytime my blood's pumping - the usual shit really....fucking, fighting, dancing, partying, doing burnouts, kissing someone for the 1st time, speeding on my motorbike, hanging off a rockface. Anytime when I feel I'm lucky to be alive.
People who know me well know that I am one of a rare breed of genuine nice guys. I might sound cocky or arrogant saying this but I'm not really, in fact I'm actually quite shy and am very much "a gentleman with a few rough edges."
Some say I'm eccentric, and I have been accused of being amusing at times! I get on with everyone, I'm intelligent, have common sense and an uncanny knack of being socially inept at the exact moment when I least want to be. I talk too much when I'm nervous, but I'm happy to be told to shut up too.
I am cyclothymic, which means I have a "condition" similar to but not as severe as Bi-polar Disorder (Manic-depression), that affects my moods. I am not a "danger to the general public", only to people who fuck with my family and friends, in fact, if anything I am less dangerous THAN the general public, lol. I mildly disapprove of the words "suffer from" or "mental health Problem". How the mind works is still mostly a mystery to modern science, and unsurprisingly, even that big fat book my daughter bought me called "how the mind works - by Steven Pinker" does little to explain things. It is my belief that my brain chemicals are different that's all, just like people who are epileptic have a chemical imbalance. You wouldn't think there was anything "abnormal" about me if you met me. Without purposefully trying to be contradictory, I also freely acknowledge that sometimes I may well be "not normal". This is because I get anxious or confused for no particular reason every now and then, or rarely I am quiet and pensive and have no motivation, can't get out of bed don't eat properly and have erratic sleep patterns, and sometimes I'm a fireball of enthusiasm and inspiration, full of ideas and can achieve any goal I set myself. These conflicting mood states cause my friends and family to despair at how I'm not doing really well with a good career etc, but this is just the way I am and I have accepted that. From day to day I'm someone who most find polite, understanding, honest, compassionate, mildly interesting, etc, etc, long list of words that don't include Lunatic, Murderer, Nutter, Psycho, Wierdo, etc,. etc,. I know I'm a decent man, I like who I am, and so does everyone who knows me.
My psychiatrist, the very pleasant and perceptive Dr. Lars Hansen, says "Roy really looks well and is unremarkable. Low risk. I shall see him hopefully one last time before discharging him next spring (2007)" so I suppose that's good, lol.
I would say that generally speaking, most people my age have "grown up" into boring people, obsessed with keeping up with the neighbours and becoming responsible, stuck in the debt/work trap and mentally conditioned by society's expectations into forgetting what being alive is all about, having fun.
Our lives are short enough as it is, nothing we do on this earth is going to have any impact on the big picture, we are all like specks of dust in time and space.
Should you be curious enough or suspicious enough to want to know more about my mental health state, I have continued here
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